my 64 : my 64 - mike jones

why is it that a life is haunted by the sins of its past,

i'm so mad at myself
i don't want to be this way
but i guess i can't change myself completely

i feel that i am ready for so many things
but in a way i'm not
i guess i'm just feeling this because i'm still a teenager.

but when i am ready
everything will fall into place.

i'm lost
i don't know what to do
someone please help me
i don't want to be like everyone else


why can't this world be innocent
like babies
they don't know what evil is
i just can't wait till the day when this world finally is filled with peace.

i like this guy
he likes another
yet he is my best friend
i wish he would like me
but it can't be so

if he would like me we would feel different
i really like him
i guess i won't be that special someone for him.

THE TOKAYOS

why is it that the man that you love,
loves you back but not in the same way?
because he might not have the same feelings that you have for him
love is friendship on fire
love is the thing that holds you together but it can tear you apart
like fire and powder as they kiss consume.
it can tear you apart like glass breaking on a floor
it can bring you sorrow and grief
but these violent delights have violent ends
though it has pain and suffering it gives you the reward
of being with the one you love
but it can also cause sepperation


sometimes the person you love can be the one that hurts you the most
the hurting is good because if you stand up to your fears it will
give you the courage and valor to live youre life to the fullest
but that person may be the one that pulls you down and the one that won't let you fulfill your dreams
if you truly love that person you will accept the sacrifices nescassery and create new dreams and goals with the one you love
for they will not stop and see if you are ready they will take youre heart and ram it into the ground like trash in a dumpster
but that is why you find someone else that will really care about your hopes and dreams.

i am going through alot
i've been changing
i feel guilty about some thoughts in my head
i want to change for the better before it's to late

i want to give my life to God
i've done it before but i believe i have to do it again
i'm getting an attitude
i want to be a better person

please someone help me be a better person.